Hello there! Once again, happy, happy New Year! I can't believe we're already 5 days into the new year! That means my birthday will be in 19 days and that's just crazy to say out loud! (Ew I'll be 24! ;(( ) I wanted to take this moment to express the plans that I have … Continue reading What to expect from In The Life Of Faith, 2018.
Yet another day of proving to myself that I can do it. Totally self centered but I’m 100% proud of myself at how I handled my day. Today was my first day starting my second job. I’m seasonal and just here for the holidays (of course) but if I do well enough I can be … Continue reading Starting my second job and being prepared.
Since Wednesday I've had some serious brain fog on my hands, oh and the brain of course. I remember it clearly because I felt overwhelmed with things I wanted to do but didn't know where to start. So I started to draw and paint because I've got some 8x10 canvases. I figured I would finally … Continue reading Mental illness feels like: brain fog.
I'm thinking of turning this day into a weekly posting! Last week it just hit me, like "I should do this once a week." I told myself I wanted to get my toenails done this Sunday as like an "at home spa treatment" because I couldn't afford a pedicure. Alas, my mother took me out!! … Continue reading Self-Care Sunday: Coffee, pedicure and more!
National November Writing Month I wanted to quickly blurb about this annual event as it’s going to be the first time I’m participating. To my understanding, NaNoWriMonth has been for people wanting to finish writing whatever it is that they are working on. A book, fanfiction, short stories, etc. All year I've been thinking … Continue reading NaNoWriMonth 2017!
I feel your eyes through the walls You don’t have to be near for me to feel them Always watching It’s like you put walls around me Forming a maze No matter where I go, you will always be watching My life is not my own For you control it The opinions, the pressure, the … Continue reading Unsettled
Everything in my life I can’t seem to really drop. I can take out items, I can remove friends, choose were I work etc. But I can’t seem to work with family. It’s so overwhelming and is about 60% of my anxiety issue. I’m not saying my family is horrible, no, not at all. They … Continue reading Why can’t I move on?
A new day can be life changing Life altering Living is unbearable Life doesn’t stop Unless you ask Make it happen Can you handle another day Living in the unknown Unbearable, unmanageable There is no point of life It just is Living
Earlier today I was told a comment that destroyed my day. It took me my whole day to shove that comment down and tell it to fuck off. Sadly, the beldam wanted to fight. Today she didn’t even knock at the door. She crept through the unlocked secret window. I should have locked that damn … Continue reading Mental illness feels like; late night anxiety.
Happy birthdays stopped being meaningful to me after my 17th birthday. I think because it just got harder and harder to decided on things. And I wasn’t as enthusiastic about it. I found it “silly” to celebrate life in a specific day because we should celebrate life all the time. At least, that’s what I … Continue reading What’s the point of a birthday again?