Love the skin you’re in; TAG!

This is a great post for me to start on for Saturday I think! Browsing through my feed I noticed the beautiful Sophie Harris had done this “body positivity” and I’m all about that. Since I’ve been self conscious my whole life, being comfortable in my own skins means more to me then I can word. And in reference to Sophie’s blog, looks like this beauty Liliana is who started it all! Thank you for doing this!

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TAG RULES:

  • Thank the person who nominated you and include a link to their blog in your post
  • Display the “love the skin you’re in” image.
  • Be truthful when answering the questions and don’t judge what other people have answered in their posts.
  • If you want to add any questions to this tag related to body positivity feel free to.
  • Try to nominate as many people as you can, if not everyone.

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QUESTIONS:

1. One feature you love about yourself?
One of my features that I love about me are my eyes. I adore them for the colors that they change, and I truly believe that they say when “the eyes are the window to the soul”. They are the first thing we look at, at one another. And I get compliments all the time about my eyes. I love them!

2. One feature you wish/wished you could change that you are trying to accept or have accepted?
If I was asked this before, say 3 months ago I would have told you my weight. Maybe I still think this way- since I am very aware of it. I wish I didn’t gain fat in my face, and I wish I didn’t gain fat in my midsection. I’ve been learning to love it though through clothing and accessories. AND a bathing suit. ❤

3. Have you ever thought of getting surgery to change you imperfections?
I’ve thought about enhancing my lips.. I want them to be full and plump. However I’ve never thought about changing anything else on my body. Maybe a breast lift but that was literally for a conversation and I never thought about it since. (I’ve accepted how big and well my breasts are even though they are taking my back out)

4. One of your main role models for body positivity?
I personally have no researched anyone. I know who Tess Holiday is.. but only from a facebook post. (So I really don’t know her tbh) I’ve been going all on my own about this. It’s best to be accepting and loving of your body.

5. Has a family member or friend ever put you down about your physical appearance? If so what for?
Yes, absolutely. We joke around and are really playful with one another in my household. So being called fat was a big thing for us (we are all overweight) and we used it as a grenade when we were angry or fighting. I was always singled out for my glasses as well, since I’m blind… they were always a inch thick. And it magnified my face INTENSELY and it still does. And my grandmother was big about singling out when we lost or gained weight. Ahhh, love it.

6. Something you love about your fashion sense or style?
This is something I’m still working on. However I love bright pastel girly colors, but I also love the basic fashion you see in magazines. Anyways, whatever I see I try and make it work with what I have. I’m not a fashionista in anyway. I just love cloths that I can find that fit me.

7. Why is your body a great place to be?
My body is a great place to be because it IS my temple. I don’t drink or smoke or do drugs (not illegal ones anyways) and over the last two months I’ve realized how much my body means to me. I cherish her more, and I notice all the small things now. With meditation and self care treatments.. I’ve just learned to love her. And me.

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I’m the one with the black rimmed glasses on the far left. My name is Faith and I love my body. 🙂

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@afracturedfaith!

@Brenana!

@feliefelspages!

@Neuro Rebel!

 

Goodbye alone time, hello outside world.

Today was my first day back at work after being gone for six weeks! I was extremely nervous to show up today, not knowing what to expect. And in all honestly, I wasn’t willing to work. I just wanted to stay home- even though I desperately needed something to do.

I didn’t have much of a routine like I wanted to this morning. The night before I had the urge to pick-up my room a little bit. And if you’re like me, you’ll get half way through it, sit down, and then lose all motivation to finish what you started. I told myself it would be wise to make a tiny to-do list to make myself feel better in the morning. Since I’m only working 6 hour shifts, I talked myself into thinking there would be “enough time” but there wasn’t. (HA) I ended up taking up most of my time just getting ready.

Overall today was a very stress free day. I was able to just focus on things that needed attention (machine status and order supplies) and some training. Working with some customers but not to many. It was such a good feeling. Some stuff had changed since I’ve been gone- which I’m surprised on. People leaving, some very quick updates on some policies and how we process items. And all the while, I felt no pressure. No “hurry and get this done”. No anxiousness. I shouldn’t soak to much of this in. I have a feeling I won’t feel this good for long.

Today also made me realize that I just want to stay home and not to anything. Just have the freedom to do the things I want when I’m ready. This feeling makes me want to work harder on the things I really want to do. Which is my blog and youtube and school. Knowing what you really want to do with your life is the best feeling ever. And I’m going to have to work very, very hard for these goals. I want to create my own lifestyle, doing all the things I want to do. Which is mostly reading, writing and drawing. And my new found- blogging and vlogging.

I told myself I had to write today because I felt great. However I spent the last three hours recording and editing (and reposting) my first youtube video which you can find here! I still have to post “week six” as well. It was a tough session and we didn’t talk much. So stay tuned for that post sometime tomorrow! (It’s midnight now. It’s been two weeks since I’ve stayed up this late!! )

Have y’all ever felt like you “belonged”? Or found the exact “thing” you never thought you’d do?

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Taking back the wheel; I can do it.

I got it all together now. I can see it all. Well, most of it- but that’s still a great start. I woke up this morning and I felt the good stuff. The good energy I’ve been seeking all week.

I’ve made list after list after list of things that I needed to do. And I’m finally not intimidated by them.  They’re not even to-do lists to me anymore, they are just “reminders” now.  I mean, that’s the realization I came to yesterday after therapy. They are there to help me when I’m bored. When I can’t think of what to do during the day. Ahhh it’s such a relief to finally see that now.

Anyways, after said therapy session I realized a ton (which will make more sense in “week six” post). I’m ready to get back into a real routine. I authentic routine where I can actually look forward too. Where I can wake up and go to work and then reward myself properly. This wasn’t a vacation. As much as I wanted it to be it wasn’t. This was the worst place I’ve ever been in my whole life. However I’m thankful for the support I have, and I’m thankful to have a place to stay while I went through this all.  I’m ready to be an adult and live my life doing whatever it is I want. And that is an amazing feeling to finally feel. I’ve never been more ready to do anything, ever, like I am now. Scream it from the backyard, on the tiny rock in the pool! (Because I’m terrified of heights, no rooftops for me. ) I don’t have a plan but I see myself capable of making one. Without any hurtful thoughts. Without any painful flashbacks or rejection or self-confidence thoughts in the way. Have you ever felt like that? Ready to do something without any strings holding you back? Or if you haven’t what did hold you back?

Now that’s off my chest I’m excited to announce I will be returning back to work this week! I start off with some easy shifts (thankfully) and I’ll be working with another co-worker in my department. Which I’m thankful for there too. I was anxious I was going to come back and get thrown right back into the mix of the workforce. When I honestly believed I needed a few stepping stones. So there is that. A little background with work.. I’m a department manager for Office Max. If you’ve ever been to one of these “related” retail stores, they operate a department where people can get copies, fax, and scan items and more! Yup that’s me. I run that department where we do all sorts of creative work. So it’s a very busy area all around. It can be stressful at times as well. I was alone for all of my shift until business shot up over the last few months and I couldn’t do the work by myself anymore. I really needed some extra hands, but we were limited. I had to wait a very long time before I was heard. And it took me leaving for this “break” for it to finally happen. Being a hard worker that needs to have all the tools to do my job makes it stressful sometimes. I built a massive amount of pressure on myself. So I hope you can see why I was extremely anxious.

Like I said before I really did wish this was a vacation I was on. All of a sudden, now that I’ll be returning back into work- I feel as though there are so many things I want to do before that day comes. (A little over 24 hours from now) I wish I took the time to focus more on my hobbies, and blogging. But I can’t be upset with myself. I came a very long way and I still have many, many more days to come. I can see it all now, what I’m able to do and not do without feeling pressure or any weight on myself. And that’s an exciting step.

Thank you for reading! Let me know what exciting steps you went through in your life! Was it a new car, or job? Pet or house? Maybe something personal like me!

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