I find myself at a loss for words as I stand here at my mother's kitchen island and write this out. I'm just baffled, tongue-tied and all-around confused at last weeks events. Like, I just want to go "this was the worse week ever!!!!" but it wasn't the worse week it was just a difficult … Continue reading There is no backstage crew behind closed curtains.
I know it's Monday and not Sunday evening, but I wanted to share with you guys that it's not always about gettin out of the house and doing something for your self care needs. As I mentioned in my last post, last week was nonstop for me. I made sure to take care of myself … Continue reading Self care Sunday, catching up.
I'm finally well rested to share my events on BlackFriday! I love reflecting on myself and comparing how I would have reacted in the past. It reminds me that I'm on a good path and I'm learning and growing and that is the best feeling in the world to me. Last week I worked 50 … Continue reading Black Friday Afterparty!
Yet another day of proving to myself that I can do it. Totally self centered but I’m 100% proud of myself at how I handled my day. Today was my first day starting my second job. I’m seasonal and just here for the holidays (of course) but if I do well enough I can be … Continue reading Starting my second job and being prepared.
This is the best way I can put this experience to be honest with you. I felt like I was in the backseat in an awkward car ride while a friend was getting yelled at. And I couldn't help but feel that anxiety even though I wasn't the one getting in trouble. Except I wasn't … Continue reading Mental illness feels like: second hand anxiety.
I'm taking a bathroom break just so I can write this. I'm feeling those ugly feelings like I use too a few months ago. I'm taking offense, I'm getting agitated and having this overpowering feeling to snap at certain people. I'm just so quick to get irritated and annoyed by everything. I don't want to … Continue reading Taking coworkers too seriously.
Hello, I know it's been awhile since I've posted. I updated my main page a bit though! I'm going to be fixing up my directory and my tags so it'll be easier to find whatever "series" I'm writing about. So with that blurb let get started! I've been at this job since the end of … Continue reading Is honesty really the best policy?
I'm thinking of turning this day into a weekly posting! Last week it just hit me, like "I should do this once a week." I told myself I wanted to get my toenails done this Sunday as like an "at home spa treatment" because I couldn't afford a pedicure. Alas, my mother took me out!! … Continue reading Self-Care Sunday: Coffee, pedicure and more!
I feel your eyes through the walls You don’t have to be near for me to feel them Always watching It’s like you put walls around me Forming a maze No matter where I go, you will always be watching My life is not my own For you control it The opinions, the pressure, the … Continue reading Unsettled
Everything in my life I can’t seem to really drop. I can take out items, I can remove friends, choose were I work etc. But I can’t seem to work with family. It’s so overwhelming and is about 60% of my anxiety issue. I’m not saying my family is horrible, no, not at all. They … Continue reading Why can’t I move on?