It's now been a whole month since I've started this high school program and it doesn't even feel like it's been a month! I have two more weeks left, three tops depending on how well I do getting the last of these classes out of the way and then I'll be into the phlebotomy program … Continue reading
I woke up with mild anxiety this morning. I think it has to do with my phone blowing up and not getting enough sleep last night. It was about 3am that I'm aware of before I was even able to sleep. And then suddenly 5 hours later the phone is ringing and buzzing and me … Continue reading Tuesday Blues’
Today my sister left to collect her friend from another state. She's moving in with us to (hopefully) have a better life and just help her out. I'm excited to have someone else in the house, sometimes we get at each other's throats. I like that though, I feel like we still have some connection. … Continue reading Airport sanctuary
Here I am once again just not doing the things I said I would. Apologies mean nothing now if you ask me. Honestly, I'm in a spot. I'm in this spot and I know how to get out of it but it's going to take some time and I feel as though I don't have … Continue reading In the life of faith
I'm on week two of my studies and oh my god I've never been so driven in my life!! The option to learn just motivates me to get shit done. I can't say school has changed my life, but it has definitely improved it. I love working out daily goals and planning out my day, … Continue reading Study recap – week 1
Last week was a real roller coaster ride for me because I was going through so many things at once. I saw my PCP and my therapist, had tests done and had the question sparked if I was bipolar or not. I haven't been this tired in awhile but it's enough for me to want … Continue reading Back to therapy, 2018.
New Years are so much fun! It's like starting over and it brings a huge wave of freshness that I'm grateful for. To start my new year off, I got a new job. Quit the two I was working and started at this place! It's a dry cleaners I work by myself most of the … Continue reading Happy New year!!
I find myself at a loss for words as I stand here at my mother's kitchen island and write this out. I'm just baffled, tongue-tied and all-around confused at last weeks events. Like, I just want to go "this was the worse week ever!!!!" but it wasn't the worse week it was just a difficult … Continue reading There is no backstage crew behind closed curtains.
I know it's Monday and not Sunday evening, but I wanted to share with you guys that it's not always about gettin out of the house and doing something for your self care needs. As I mentioned in my last post, last week was nonstop for me. I made sure to take care of myself … Continue reading Self care Sunday, catching up.
This is the best way I can put this experience to be honest with you. I felt like I was in the backseat in an awkward car ride while a friend was getting yelled at. And I couldn't help but feel that anxiety even though I wasn't the one getting in trouble. Except I wasn't … Continue reading Mental illness feels like: second hand anxiety.