Yet another day of proving to myself that I can do it. Totally self centered but I’m 100% proud of myself at how I handled my day. Today was my first day starting my second job. I’m seasonal and just here for the holidays (of course) but if I do well enough I can be … Continue reading Starting my second job and being prepared.
After getting a second opinion from my mom about the whole work situation she opened my eyes to some things I wasn't thinking of. I have high expectations. I mean it, I have really high expectations. I set my standards high for someone in management. I expect them to know everything, do their tasks, and … Continue reading High expectations.
This is the best way I can put this experience to be honest with you. I felt like I was in the backseat in an awkward car ride while a friend was getting yelled at. And I couldn't help but feel that anxiety even though I wasn't the one getting in trouble. Except I wasn't … Continue reading Mental illness feels like: second hand anxiety.
I'm taking a bathroom break just so I can write this. I'm feeling those ugly feelings like I use too a few months ago. I'm taking offense, I'm getting agitated and having this overpowering feeling to snap at certain people. I'm just so quick to get irritated and annoyed by everything. I don't want to … Continue reading Taking coworkers too seriously.
Hello, I know it's been awhile since I've posted. I updated my main page a bit though! I'm going to be fixing up my directory and my tags so it'll be easier to find whatever "series" I'm writing about. So with that blurb let get started! I've been at this job since the end of … Continue reading Is honesty really the best policy?
Ive been very sleepy here the last few days and I’m not sure why. Had to be some things I’m eating, because I’m drinking plenty of water. Anyways, I’m very sleepy now and I wanted to share how my day went before I ended it. I didn’t plan on going to the movies today. I … Continue reading Happy death day
Last week I was hit with some news that took an overwhelming toll on me. I’m still dealing with it this week unfortunately but that’s ok. Soon I hope it resolved itself. But this post isn’t about the news! It’s about this past Sunday and how I took hours of my free time to just … Continue reading Self-Care Sunday
If you asked me about four years ago, why I would suddenly burst into tears or why I was tearing up, or WHY I was acting so “needy”. I honestly wouldn’t have been able to answer you. I would just say “I’m tired” or “I don’t feel good”. Emotions are just a hair ball, ya … Continue reading Mental illness feels like; random panic attacks.
In my last post I talked about starting habits. Building up a routine is a habit, and it’s a ton of work. But I’ve learned it’s so worth it. In therapy, the happy house had told me over and over again that I should “do” this. Get a routine Meditate Yoga Sleep All of this … Continue reading How to start a routine and keep healthy habits!
Earlier today I was told a comment that destroyed my day. It took me my whole day to shove that comment down and tell it to fuck off. Sadly, the beldam wanted to fight. Today she didn’t even knock at the door. She crept through the unlocked secret window. I should have locked that damn … Continue reading Mental illness feels like; late night anxiety.