Happy death day 

Ive been very sleepy here the last few days and I’m not sure why. Had to be some things I’m eating, because I’m drinking plenty of water. Anyways, I’m very sleepy now and I wanted to share how my day went before I ended it.  I didn’t plan on going to the movies today. I … Continue reading Happy death day 

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Mental illness feels like; random panic attacks. 

If you asked me about four years ago, why I would suddenly burst into tears or why I was tearing up, or WHY I was acting so “needy”. I honestly wouldn’t have been able to answer you. I would just say “I’m tired” or “I don’t feel good”. Emotions are just a hair ball, ya … Continue reading Mental illness feels like; random panic attacks. 

Mental illness feels like; late night anxiety. 

Earlier today I was told a comment that destroyed my day. It took me my whole day to shove that comment down and tell it to fuck off.  Sadly, the beldam wanted to fight. Today she didn’t even knock at the door. She crept through the unlocked secret window. I should have locked that damn … Continue reading Mental illness feels like; late night anxiety. 

Limbo isn’t a vacation spot. 

Right now, I feel like am back in limbo. Where I don’t know how I’m feeling or what I should be doing. Like before, how I would write about me having a to-do list but never did them?? Or how I would fight with myself over what thing I should do to start my day. … Continue reading Limbo isn’t a vacation spot. 

#MotivationalMonday, The Bigger Picture. 

I don’t know how to explain how I feel right now. It’s not bad, that I can say for sure. I think it’s content? At ease. Relearning emotions has been a challenge for me. What I use to feel when I was significantly (emotionally) sensitive I was in constant flight mode. I was always in … Continue reading #MotivationalMonday, The Bigger Picture. 

The best self care day yet. 

The more that time goes on the more I understand that I’m ready for anything. I’m ready to defend, I’m ready to advocate, and I’m ready to teach others about the importance of mental health. And I was able to do that for the first time in public while fulfilling a phone upgrade.  Now before … Continue reading The best self care day yet. 

Google has teamed up with NAMI, to create a screening tool for depression.

Yes, you read that right. NAMI, an advocacy for mental health partnered with Google to help those searching for more information about "depression" or "clinical depression". NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness) wanted to not only inform others that they were not alone, but also guide them into the right direction to seeking help. Statistically, … Continue reading Google has teamed up with NAMI, to create a screening tool for depression.

VLOG |Therapy update, & why didn’t I see a psychiatrist before?

Hey guys! In yesterday's VLOG I talked about some things I've been wanting to get off my chest. Last night I posted After hours; open to those who need to chat. which kinda wrapped up my overall feelings and thoughts that I didn't mention"""too much""" within my VLOG. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Ca6xF396Hc TAKEN FROM MY YOUTUBE CHANNEL    Hey guys! … Continue reading VLOG |Therapy update, & why didn’t I see a psychiatrist before?

Week nine; speak up.

Finally it happened. A session that I didn't really feel that much into it. Don't mistake that statement though. Going to my therapy session's really really do help me. However I don't come prepared most of the time, and I'll explain. During the week I think of many things. Don't we all? And most of … Continue reading Week nine; speak up.

Week seven; Good job, you played yourself.

I'm very late on this post, so I apologize in advanced. If you've been following me for this long thank you. New readers welcome! I visit a therapist once a week and these are my weekly write ups. My notes and experiences with a therapist. However I'm late on this post, as I previously said. … Continue reading Week seven; Good job, you played yourself.