Tuesday Blues’

I woke up with mild anxiety this morning. I think it has to do with my phone blowing up and not getting enough sleep last night. It was about 3am that I'm aware of before I was even able to sleep. And then suddenly 5 hours later the phone is ringing and buzzing and me … Continue reading Tuesday Blues’

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In the life of faith

Here I am once again just not doing the things I said I would. Apologies mean nothing now if you ask me. Honestly, I'm in a spot. I'm in this spot and I know how to get out of it but it's going to take some time and I feel as though I don't have … Continue reading In the life of faith

Rest is more important than you think.

I've been a huge advocate when it comes to taking your time on things and learning when to have a break and or a breathing moment. Even at work, school, events, at home, just about anywhere you would feel like you would need a break. Over time I've noticed that I do need to take … Continue reading Rest is more important than you think.

There is no backstage crew behind closed curtains.

I find myself at a loss for words as I stand here at my mother's kitchen island and write this out. I'm just baffled, tongue-tied and all-around confused at last weeks events. Like, I just want to go "this was the worse week ever!!!!" but it wasn't the worse week it was just a difficult … Continue reading There is no backstage crew behind closed curtains.

Mental illness feels like; sleepless nights

As I’m typing this, I’m cautious pacing between the dinning room and the kitchen. I’m subconsciously making my way to the living room as well, which I didn’t know until now. The television is on and it’s agrivating to me. Like my nerves are stretched so thin, I feel as though I much just punch … Continue reading Mental illness feels like; sleepless nights

Mental illness feels like; random panic attacks. 

If you asked me about four years ago, why I would suddenly burst into tears or why I was tearing up, or WHY I was acting so “needy”. I honestly wouldn’t have been able to answer you. I would just say “I’m tired” or “I don’t feel good”. Emotions are just a hair ball, ya … Continue reading Mental illness feels like; random panic attacks. 

Mental illness feels like; late night anxiety. 

Earlier today I was told a comment that destroyed my day. It took me my whole day to shove that comment down and tell it to fuck off.  Sadly, the beldam wanted to fight. Today she didn’t even knock at the door. She crept through the unlocked secret window. I should have locked that damn … Continue reading Mental illness feels like; late night anxiety. 

#MotivationalMonday, The Bigger Picture. 

I don’t know how to explain how I feel right now. It’s not bad, that I can say for sure. I think it’s content? At ease. Relearning emotions has been a challenge for me. What I use to feel when I was significantly (emotionally) sensitive I was in constant flight mode. I was always in … Continue reading #MotivationalMonday, The Bigger Picture. 

The best self care day yet. 

The more that time goes on the more I understand that I’m ready for anything. I’m ready to defend, I’m ready to advocate, and I’m ready to teach others about the importance of mental health. And I was able to do that for the first time in public while fulfilling a phone upgrade.  Now before … Continue reading The best self care day yet.