Bird by Bird, it’s a lifestyle

Lately, I've been trying to write.. but all I want to write about is the progress of my bullet journal. and I feel as though that is not as personal or the intent of my blog, at least, not yet anyway. I get so many waves of confusion when I want to blog also, like I … Continue reading Bird by Bird, it’s a lifestyle

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There is no backstage crew behind closed curtains.

I find myself at a loss for words as I stand here at my mother's kitchen island and write this out. I'm just baffled, tongue-tied and all-around confused at last weeks events. Like, I just want to go "this was the worse week ever!!!!" but it wasn't the worse week it was just a difficult … Continue reading There is no backstage crew behind closed curtains.

Mental illness feels like; sleepless nights

As I’m typing this, I’m cautious pacing between the dinning room and the kitchen. I’m subconsciously making my way to the living room as well, which I didn’t know until now. The television is on and it’s agrivating to me. Like my nerves are stretched so thin, I feel as though I much just punch … Continue reading Mental illness feels like; sleepless nights

Mental illness feels like; random panic attacks. 

If you asked me about four years ago, why I would suddenly burst into tears or why I was tearing up, or WHY I was acting so “needy”. I honestly wouldn’t have been able to answer you. I would just say “I’m tired” or “I don’t feel good”. Emotions are just a hair ball, ya … Continue reading Mental illness feels like; random panic attacks. 

Mental illness feels like; late night anxiety. 

Earlier today I was told a comment that destroyed my day. It took me my whole day to shove that comment down and tell it to fuck off.  Sadly, the beldam wanted to fight. Today she didn’t even knock at the door. She crept through the unlocked secret window. I should have locked that damn … Continue reading Mental illness feels like; late night anxiety. 

#MotivationalMonday, The Bigger Picture. 

I don’t know how to explain how I feel right now. It’s not bad, that I can say for sure. I think it’s content? At ease. Relearning emotions has been a challenge for me. What I use to feel when I was significantly (emotionally) sensitive I was in constant flight mode. I was always in … Continue reading #MotivationalMonday, The Bigger Picture. 

The best self care day yet. 

The more that time goes on the more I understand that I’m ready for anything. I’m ready to defend, I’m ready to advocate, and I’m ready to teach others about the importance of mental health. And I was able to do that for the first time in public while fulfilling a phone upgrade.  Now before … Continue reading The best self care day yet. 

Mental illness feels like: racing thoughts.  

For the last week I've been coming home from work and just having this constant throbbing of thoughts.  I'm proud to say I finally have the tools to somewhat silence then. However, they are still an aching annoyance.  For example- yesterday. It was my day off, I had planned to do some light cleaning around … Continue reading Mental illness feels like: racing thoughts.  

Stand up for yourself and others.

I'm happy I was able to finish up my Suicide Prevention posts before September ended. It meant so much to be, due to the stigma surrounding it. I'm trying very hard to educate those about mental health and how you can help others. I feel uncomfortable talking about this because it's work related and I … Continue reading Stand up for yourself and others.